Sunday, April 15, 2012

I do not know if there is a higher power up there, but I'm going to start praying.

You've got an awesome big ass group of family rooting for you, so be strong and get through the upcoming surgery safe and sound, Mr Don.

Also that the biopsy will give you a clean bill of health. fighting!

and to my dear aunt who lost her husband, please get your act together and live strongly for your children.

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Thursday, March 15, 2012

So hard for me to make a decision.

What do i want? Where will i go?

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Sunday, December 25, 2011

woke up early, mum nag, dad talking in riddles and get annoyed when i guess wrongly. Dad said missing one more present, 10 minutes later said there's no handles on the paper bag. 1/2 hr later says one more thing... how the fuck do u want me to accomplish shit when u said it so vaguely and not together.

So Merry Fucking Xmas to all you fake shitdickheads out there.

Meet up once a year to have secret santa. The fuck? end up giving back the exact same presents. The fuck is that.

I HATE XMAS LIKE THIS. it's no longer the same.

ISn't xmas all about family in a way. when has it become giving presents to strangers u meet once a year or strangers you don't even like. AND PRETENDING TO CARE THAT THE PEOPLE U HATE HAVE A NICE FUCKING XMAS. SO FUCK U ALL

SO yeah, give it another 5 years. CNY XMAS and whatever festival will lose all the atmosphere for everrrrr.

SO YEAH I THINK IT'S LAME.

to all those people who are volunteering out there today for a good cause. I wish you the utmost good karma in the whole wide world. u guys are the awesome ones.

fuck this shit. i'm going out.

Thursday, December 08, 2011

#Incident no.1

Conclusion

1. You really didn't think much about it
2. You think i'm an idiot
3. You Trust me too much
4. I think you are trying to exploit me

50/50? Good and Bad

Well I will never know will i. It's either trust or not


It sucks getting a new job and starting the whole process all over again. I do realize now that i'm so not a people person.... maybe i'm simply too paranoid.


i feel so small and lost. why is the world so huge. why do i always feel like i'm the little kid and the jobs and salary i earn are just for "fun". I don't think reality hit me yet, i think it bashed my head in and i'm simply too damaged to process it.

income tax, bills, etc all these adults responsibilities...it's INSANE!!!

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Early Morning, received a text from my dear hk friend asking if i'm working
(for the 4 time?)

It's crazy even that on an international level i get asked this question like...forever

I am currently unemployed since August. By Choice. I'm not currently in Uni because i don't know what i want to study. Is it so wrong to not know? people around me seem to be freaking out more than i am..

People Freak Me Out.

I know i'm not moving forward, basically stuck while everyone is rushing off to be somewhere.

it scares me, but making stupid decisions because it's not a "normal" situation to be in will freak me out even more.

So now i have to think if it's a mentally sound decision to pay 60k for a degree with a specialized job scope which will take 4 years of my life and all of my brain cells. Which i can't fail, if i do badly it will rendered the degree pretty much shit ass useless which will be a very very long time ROI wise.

OR i can pay around 30+k for a pretty general degree which i can excel in because it will be easier and more common. and basically be stuck in a job which i will forever hate and contemplate murder all the time.

I hate clubbing now, I hate the part of going home feeling like shit and feel shit about feeling like shit and feel shit that i went in the first place. The shitty part is...i forgot about all the shit i felt and do it again. IT'S A VICIOUS CYCLE.

I can't go overseas and study, what about my baby lipton. I look for him when i wake up, i look for him when i use the toilet, i call for him when i'm eating, i just need him to be in my frickin sight all the time. I thought love for this is at this Max level, but it increases every single fucking minute. I'm going to be a shitface mess if he dies...which he will and i am prepared for that in the far fetch future long long time away.

I may sound like a crazy cat lady...but we have a name: Cat Mommies. and I have cat mommies friends all over the world. and lipton is not a cat. he is my baby and my mum can't even scold or spank him cuz i will get real pissed.

If my child is ever allergic to cats or dogs or whatever. I will rub his/her face in fur everyday till the allergy is Fixed. This is how much i love animals.

I have been pestering my parents to let me have a dog...so today we were talking about abortions and mum mentioned she had two....and she said maybe Lipton is one of the aborted one. So i told my sis: We can have one more... (i'm going to hell for this)

Monday, November 07, 2011

I was in the kitchen preparing tea and my cat was waiting for me by the fridge. As i turn to ask him what he wants, the dishes "collapse" in the sink. You know when you don't put them properly and they lose balance and makes a clatter. Well what the hell that happen and it startled me a abit but that's like normal stuff but why collapse now i didn't even go near the sink or put dishes in them. SO THE CRAZY PART IS my CAT'S REACTION. He Plonk his cute ass down and eyes big and all staring at the sink direction. and his tail was like flipping from side to side with a force not those lazy swagger swing they do.

HE kept STARING i kept talking to him and he ignores me. So i carried him up and he freaking stretch his head all the way to the sink direction again and stare somemore. OKAY grab tea and walk outta there.

It's just like when he just sits and stare into the corner of the room. Well Corners are just freaky when i found out from my uncle about Corners.

Well apparently according to his frend who can see stuff like the other spirits and what not, they usually appears thru the corners of the house. it's like their portal or smth. So yea Corners are freaky.

I'm not scared of ghostly stuff, clear conscience and all. no worries right?

Last year when i was still working, a colleague pass away in an accident during new years day and shortly after i started working there. So i was crazy early in the office one day around 7.30am. Doors are all locked, no open windows, lights off, dark as shit and i don't on all the lights being abit green and all, i do try to save resources.

Crazy shit was i heard keyboard typing sound, so when the office is freaking dark and quiet u can hear yr own breathing, that's creepy. I didn't think much of it so i went around the cubicles and offices to see who is in. Yupps. No one. it was pretty cool how i handled it, i sat back down in my chair and played some music.

I'm just not okay with actually seeing them, I hope not..like ever.

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Wednesday, October 19, 2011



Eating Bamboo Like a Boss






Crazy Blue Lake


September Vacation with My Sister & Parents & Aunties & Uncle & Cousin & Dad's Friends. Basically Alot of people


Work Ended in August, Now Oct, Still hanging around doing nothing. IT'S KILLING ME, I can't understand why some people can not work for years on end... 2 months i'm almost going crazy. IT'S DEPRESSING. But i need to focus to get my whatever exams left over and done with. Then job hunting or School Hunting


Preparing to go Taiwan with Char again next week. Hopefully all goes well and we don't exceed luggage weight. Taiwan for vainpots like us = quite hardcore.


Been hearing alot of JAPAN holiday plans. relatives saying it's cheap la. blah blah blah, no need worry about radiation. blah blah blah.. Seriously do they even know what the hell is radiation? you don't see them partying down in chernobyl do you. Come on la, Jap will come clean with the extend of the damages done?

"Because some of the isotopes released during a nuclear accident remain radioactive for tens of thousands of years, cleanup is the work not just of first responders but also of their descendants and their descendants' descendants. Asked when the reactor site would again become inhabitable, Ihor Gramotkin, director of the Chernobyl power plant, replies, "At least 20,000 years."


I'm not being Paranoid.. I just don't wanna die. Lol.

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